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Saturday, August 23, 2008
1:00 PM

Sudden depression

Chemistry Paper 5 is not hard but a disaster for me =/ I did badly this time... haha... but I'm not sad for this because I didn't prepared much for it. Well, I just revised all the planning around 1am yesterday night after I watched the One million star season 3.

And I slept around 3am and woke up at 9am. I was thinking whether or not I should go school so early? And in the end, I went =P at around 10:30am. Being too high and crazy in the morning, and brain power used up in the afternoon, I was very tired and I took a nap in the afternoon. My last afternoon nap was weeks ago. HAHA

During the nap, I had some bad dream which caused me in a sudden depression now. Well, I actually forgot what my dream is about. Just that the bad and sad feeling is still inside me. =/

When I woke up, I started to do some thinking, more to my life and more to my circle. I found myself being too extreme about everything which I hate myself for. No one ever did bad to me, just that I hate people for no reason =/ and to those who care about me, I felt annoyed. Well, I don't know what happened to me. So, I guess these days I will be in a terrible mood swing, so think twice before you joke to me =/ Sigh~

Regarding my post about my friend in my previous post. Okay, I feel kind of guilty now. =/ I know I am too sensitive to everything and being too panaroid everytime. Know what, I just don't feel like losing this friend.

That night, I talked to someone about this and he said just treat him as how he treat you. Well, I understand, but I can't.

Oh gosh... I really don't know what to do now. I sense that the friendship bond is breaking now. I guess that the guy had read my blog and start to ignore me in life. =/ Sigh~

Actually, it is really hard for me to hate anyone. And this happened only once or twice in my life(till now). So, as this guy never did thing that is unforgiveable, so what is the reason for me to stay away from him? =/

Someone ever told me that you won't want a small thing to spoil the friendship right? Yeah, I don't want. Haha...

Anyway, one more test to go~ and hopefully everything will be alright after this mock. Sigh~

Labels: My World

Wednesday, August 20, 2008
1:37 PM

My life . My circle . My future

Hey everyone~

This is going to be a "long" post. HAHA =)

I had my Mathematics yesterday. The papers were not really hard but I just need extra time for checking and solving. Then today was a tough war for me =/ Accounting in the morning and Chemistry in the noon. Woo~ And yet, I was not motivated to study for them. But both the papers were quite fair, as long as you studied then you can do and of course with extra care. I did a stupid careless mistake in my accounting. ARghHHH! Feel like killing myself. How could I did that =S Chemistry is a lot man... have to keep on doing without taking any rest. Same to chemistry, as long as you studied, you can answer. However, I didn't study too detail for this mock, so I am not expected for a good score.=/

And now, my next test is on Saturday afternoon which means I can take a good rest now, doing my own stuffs =) Today, my wardrobe finally arrived(well, I just bought yesterday). A two sliding door with a big mirror attached to one door. I kinda like it but it seems big in my room. Later, I am going to rearrange my room. Change the stuffs position(change feng-shui). HAHA. Guess somewhile later, I will post "My Room @ 2008" soon. And of course with photo. So if you're interested. Stay tune~ =)

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Many stuffs happened these days that lead me to do deep thinking. About my life, my circle and my future. This is really annoying and suffering because I always tend to think of the bad side. =/

My life. Honestly speaking, I am not really satisfying with my current life. It is sort of dull and monotonous. I really need some events or "ingredient" to spice it up. Everyday is just the same routine: School, home, out(limteh) and repeat again. I want something more special that can my life more memorable. But I think nothing will be up till the exam finish. =/

My circle. I glad I know few good friends this year and of course how treasurable the friendship is. Of course, out of these, I also learn that not everyone is your friend. Maybe I was once his friend, but I am not now. Well, actually this is kinda "sad" that I lose this friend but what can I do because I was not his friend in his mind I think. Despite how good I treated him, the relationship seems further part. Even outsider can sense that. So, should I continue to act blind? HAHA The reason that he gave me was that I too "stick" to him so he chose to interact less with me ! Okay, I was kinda pissed off by that stupid reason. Because I treat him as my friend, so when I am out, I ask him to go out. When he was alone, I chose to stay and talk with him. When he got problem, I help him to sort out... and now this is the reason that this friendship fade. =.=" Well, if you are not my friend, why would I bother to talk with you, ask you out, help you... Maybe just that in your view, I am not a good friend. HAHA or Maybe we are not meant to be friend at all. So what can I do? Less interact? Maybe this is the only solution that is good for us.

As I read XiaXue's blog and I found what she said is quite true. This kind of people just don't respect the relationship. =/ So, I don't know what is the point to continue. =S

Anyway, those good/close friends are really good and caring. When I am down, they are there to listen. When I am pissed-off, they tried to make my laugh. When I am boring, we go out. When I am high, they high with me. When I am in trouble, they help me to sort them out.

I am so lucky to know you guys and be friend with~ HAHA And I believe this is what really a friend do. The reason to be friend =) We enjoy the fun together, we suffer the bad together (有难同当，有福同享).

My future. Okay, this is really headache. As soon as A level end, there comes those application to university. And yet, I am not really sure that what am I going to study and where to study. And I don't think I am eligible to any scholarship based on my not motivated study mood. xD And yet, I dream a lot of good future despite the poor performance of my academic. LOL

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Okay, I guess I need to clean my room now =) Anyway, appreciate your reading and visiting to my blog =)

Labels: My World

Thursday, August 14, 2008
5:13 PM

Sick and Bad

Well, I feel quite sick and bad now. =/

I feel that I am going to have a fever soon which I hope I am wrong. =/ I don't want a fever during my exam. It will definitely spoil my thinking and analytical skills. I always sweat and feel really hot these days even though I on my aircon and have it blow directly at me at its lowest temperature. Haiz~~~ Hope I can get well as soon as possible.

Next thing is that I really need someone to punch me to wake me up. Pull me from my laziness to my motivation!!! Mock is really important to me and yet I still haven't touched any of my subjects just except those revisions done in my class which I simply wrote answer without refering to the notes(almost all wrong). I thought I can get motivated when I realised I really know nothing of those subjects but it seems like none of them really frightened me =/ Oh gosh.. what can I do now? Hope by tomorrow, I can at least finish studying my Chemistry application.

Another thing is that I feel so bad because I am spoiling my own friendship which I just realised. Before, I thought it was my friend doing that but it was actually me. Being too panaroid and over-react to everything. And being too "sticky" to my friend causes a distance in between. =/ Guess, I really need to hit myself very hard to wake myself up. Stop all these stupid stuffs. HAHA

Anyway, just now went to play Rummy again. This time, I shared with Calvin and won $49 altogether. HAHA... =P I think I get banned by them soon. HAHA

Bah, I guess this is all for today. Night~

Labels: My World

Monday, August 11, 2008
2:32 PM

My life

A lot of things happened on and around me. Good and bad stuffs. And I think there were too much for me take. So, mood these days wasn't so stable. So, sorry to those who I offend. And of course, not sorry to those who offend me =) Serious stuffs happened that made me have a better idea that who are really my friends and who are not. So, I should be thankful that this accident happened =/ ? LOL . But due to this, I was about to shrink my social circle. HAHA

Well, back to my life. I want to share a horror short film, they named this "cloverfield". Brief to the clip: Scary thing appear! Then they managed to fight against it. What happened? Watch the video yourself. =)

Oh yea, this morning when I went to the library. I saw the newspaper showing the olympic news. And I think this is in Beijing and know what? I saw Brunei FLAG fly there~~~ o.o Well, now should be proud to be a Bruneian? Now, Brunei is well-known all over the world I think. So, no worry when I tell people I am from Brunei. They won't be asking questions like "where is Brunei" "Is Brunei a part of Malaysia" etc...

This morning, during my Physics lesson. My lecturer was quite angry on us because we all are like no motivation at all. He said that last year he still can see flame burn in our eyes but now, he can only see dim candle light in our eyes. He asked us better to punch ourselves so that we can wake up and start studying! HAHA Well, this is true. I really lack of motivation to initiate any study. Haiz~~~ Suppose I have to study my Chemistry Application but then no mood at all =.=

Okay, this is all for today. =)

Labels: My Life, My World

Saturday, August 09, 2008
6:23 PM

Pissed-off & Thanks

Today suppose to be a happy last Saturday night before the mock examination. But then everything turned bad, really bad in the mid.

After my dinner with Student Council and Prefects at Millennium, I messaged some of my friends to limteh, they replied. But part of the replies pissed me really off!!!

I really feeling like smashing thing around me. And I was driving that time, I really feel like hit the car in front of me. I kept on speeding till my car nearly fell during the turning. Okay, I think you know how angry I was that time.

Well, with this angry expression, I went to meet up with Yvonne, Joana, Yang, Tee and their friend. Yvonne saw me, and said that I was in a stressful expression. Well, I was still pissed-off that time. Then I told the f*cking story. Then I felt better after that. And i received apologies from some of them. Well, Thanks guys for listening to me =) I can't imagine if I was not there letting out, what will I do? And with a car again. HAHA

Labels: My Life, My World

Friday, August 08, 2008
5:48 PM

Regret and !!!

Hello readers~

These fews days were really a hot day. And I feel that I am getting sick. Now, I have flu and cough and what next? I think fever is soon to be here in me! But I hope I am wrong this time. =/ It isn't ideal to have a fever in this timing, right?

Okay, mock examination is a week after and yet I haven't start revising my works. Well, I have to say that I can't feel any tension or stress this time, nor from my friends(I guess). Everyone looks calm... which is like there is nothing scary ahead. Perhaps, they are all well prepared and just I am unprepared for anything. HAHA

I planned to revise those application notes but when I am going to start, I feel like watching movie. SO, I ended up with watching dvd in my room. And the 1~2 hours just passed. Then I started to regret. But I think everything will really starts in this coming Sunday and I really hope I could!

This Thursday night, I watched movie with YenLu, Sheeling and Kelvin. We watched Mummy 3. Okay, I have to say that this movie is just moderate, don't expect too much from it. But the middle part of the movie is quite good, just the ending part. It somehow remind me of the production of Scary Movie, Meet the Spartan, Superhero movie... It is like unreal beyond unreal. LOL

After the movie, we went to Cheezbox but we didn't order anything and just left there. We headed to CoffeeZone. Later, TingTing, YiiWen, Louis, CheeTa, SoonKet and IngWei joined us there. We talked we laughed we played board game we ate we drank then we went home. =)

I guess this will be the last outing before the mock!

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This section is another of "letting-out". So, up to you whether you want to read or not.

I really hate people who 五十步笑百步. When you are the one who are performing an action, then don't blame people or criticise people when they are doing the same thing. Well, maybe you are just kidding and you feel nothing of doing it but not everyone will like it, perhaps your close friend or best friend will but NOT ME!!! If you just want to embarass me, then go ahead but I WILL CURSE YOU FOREVER!

Okay, not I am saying that no one is to joke with me. Only my "friends" can. And I think my responses can tell whether you are or not.

Labels: My Life, My World

Monday, July 14, 2008
12:56 PM

Thanks

These days, I am not feeling really good, both physically and mentally.

And that reflects in my blog and in my msn's personal message.

And I would like to thank for those who care of me(you know who you are). Really thanks =)

And yeah, I feel better when you guys asked me "are you okay?" Although I didn't mention in detail, still I appreciate it =)

Hope I can get through all these as soon as possible. I am really tired... =/

Labels: My World

12:44 PM

Sometimes...

Sometimes, one can be really stupid that he is doing something that is just wasting his life and time and in the end, he get nothing. A pity one. Although he had a bad experience in the past but still he attempted the same thing and ended up with the same ending. He know how bad and sad he was last time but why can't he be aware this time and not to get himself involve in this stupid thing again?

Sometimes, he can't blame anyone but himself. There is no point to blame others because they never care. So, never believe that one will be guilty when one is blaming one. Well, it just making the whole thing getting worse.

Sometimes, one can be really blind. He always go for someone that is hard to be together and ignore those are already around him. Maybe, he would said that he likes to take challenges but in the end, he is the one regret of taking those challenges. And those who were around him are gone. =/

Sometimes, one is treating someone nice just because he feels like to do it. But, one won't like to be treated like nothing, especially from those who he really cares. Not necessary treat him really nice. What he want is just an acknowledge to his existence. No one would like the feeling of being isolated or being ignored. This is really hurting. =/

Sometimes, it will be better to let everything out of sight and be alone. At least, you won't be facing lot of problems. =)

Labels: My World

Wednesday, June 25, 2008
11:41 AM

Not feeling good =/

Sorry readers for not update for a long long time.

Last week was a busy week that I occupied most of my time with my friends. Those days were really nice: I hanged out, I laughed, I talked, I shared... I am so happy that I have a group a good friends to be with =)

BUT

Things are totally different this week. Mood changes and I still don't know the reason. Well, maybe after some much fun I had, now left with emptiness and sorrow. =/ Sometimes, things just appear in mind and made me really do a lot of thinking(well, negative thinking). And when I want to look for someone to talk about it, I hardly think of a topic to start with or I should said that I don't even know what is the main problem. =/ Overall, I am being "emo" these days. I lost the interest to go out with friends. I rather stay at home and listen to those sad sad songs and being alone. And I am both mentally and physically tired now.

What I really need now is something or someone that can really cheer me up. Hope things are not going worst by tomorrow. =/ Instead, going better. =)

Labels: My World

Tuesday, May 06, 2008
3:47 PM

You're back

Long time ago, you were here looking for me and accompanied me for many days and nights. Suddenly, you were gone without leaving any traces. I thought I have already forgotten the days that you were here inside me.

But now, you are once again here; you are back inside me. Well, I didn't expected that you will come back looking for me. Err... Well, things are unpredictable. So, since you're back, I would just have to accept you. But, with you in mind, can i survive within these two months? I wonder...

Exam is really round the corner and everyone is starting their revisions. But what am I doing here? I thought my motivation was back and I can really study to achieve good result. But then when everything was just about to start, illness is here, invading my body. I started with coughing then sneezing and what next? Fever? I hope no. =/

I tend to believe that I could do good in my exam but I really have to give up on this kind of thought now. I will never going excel myself under this body and mind state. For example: The Physics AS Mock Practical Exam today, I really did it badly and yet I still don't know where did I get wrong. I think it will be just a low pass or (worst) fail? Unless miracle happens, I could get an A for this exam. LOL. =.= Well, actually this exam is not that important to me as it isn't the actual GCE As exam. So, just let it be =)

Another thing worried me is that my circle. I can't say it is getting better or getting worse? =/ I think my social circle expanded but then it actually shrunk. I can't get to talk with them at times. I can't get into them in some occasions. I miss the times that we laughed and fooled in the past.

I thought I am changing from year to year but then I am actually back to what I was. Being so mean to people and being so annoying to those around me. I know I might be hated for being like this but I just can't control myself. I am actually trying to change the way I talk, the way I act and the way I behave. Well, this really takes time. =/

There is too many things that are in my mind. What I need is just to let it out =/ but then where should I let it out? Those things may be immature thoughts ,and more or less over sensitive stuffs. People told me to think of the bright side and think positive. Well, you can't said that when you think positive, those negative don't exists at all. They are still there, just you're the one avoiding them. Not to mean that I didn't think positive, well, I did. But... those negative are still there.

To end this post, I would like to apologize to those I have always be mean to and to those I have ignored.

And since you're back, I better get prepared not to let things getting worst. =/

Labels: My World

Thursday, April 17, 2008
1:25 PM

Full with regret

Sigh~

When something is done incorrectly, it is impossible for you to get back to the origin.

When you choose to be someone, you will need to be someone in the best way and take all the responsibilities.

This is where the regret comes in its fullness when the path you choose has harmed you in a way that you didn't expected.

And before everything had happened, you think the path you have chosen will brighten up your future but when you wake up and think carefully, you realize that it didn't benefit your future at all but haunt your life that make your life full with unhappiness and regret.

It is really unreasonable when you are doing exactly the same thing that others are doing and you are only the one suffer! And you are the one going to take all the responsibilities. And because of this, your friends are going to suffer as well!!! And in the end, you are not only suffer from the thing you have done, you will also be guilty of having your friends to be involve in the trouble. And this is part that you will feel regret.

Well, life is definitely full with regret and which it is unavoidable. So learn to accept it and try to overcome it are what you will need to do now. =/

Labels: My World

Wednesday, April 09, 2008
2:05 PM

I need something

I need something... I really need something...

Something that can make me forget all the stress;
Something that can make me get crazy;
Something that can get me high;
Something that can relax me and yet tie the friendship~

What I need is.... err... of course, a party! A party with my friends or people I know. A party with booze and karaoke!!!

Sigh~ I miss those moments. The moment that I sang(actually shout) karaoke with my friends; The moment that we have the heart-to-heart session; The moment that we fool around; The moment that we being so crazy and high~

Sad that I can't organize anything in my house at night. If not, woo~~~ you know what I am going to do. I can only ask friends to come in the noon, but it is hard to get high/crazy in the noon because the weather is so damn hot and the sunlight is so damn bright!!!

And the exam is near now. Everyone starts to study hard and less people want to have fun with me. So, the probability of having a gathering or party is nearly zero~

Hope one day we can have fun together and GET HIGH~!!! Hope that day is not so far away =)

Labels: My World

Monday, March 10, 2008
4:08 PM

Back?

Sigh~ I thought I just gained back my motivation days ago. But then, now I am again losing it. Sigh~ Laziness, my old mate is back in me. Grr... I am lazy to copy notes, stuffs, and do homeworks, and listen what the teachers teach. I am a bad bad student. Haha. Opps, the laziness I mean here is refer to academic. I am still very "kut lat" in blogging and facebook-ing. ^^

And all these just reminded me of how lazy was I during my primary and secondary life.

*Reminiscing*

I used to be the one talking for the whole school hours(non-stop).
I used to be the one walking around in the class ignoring the presence of the teacher.
I used to be the one trying to get myself out of any boring lesson.
I used to be the one never done any homework but classwork (rarely though).
I used to be the one day-dreaming when the teacher is teaching.
I used to be the one who is always be with the laziness. ^^

Well, it is not a bad thing though, I suppose. For me, I rather enjoying my life than stuff myself in piles of books. This ain't my policy of living. ^^ Well, for that, I have to be more hardworking when doing the last-minute revision and asking for notes or tips. Hehe. Okay, I know this is not good, so better you don't follow me. =P

Lessons are getting boring these days. And seems like I lost interest the science. Well, not on the knowledge but on the teachings. Hmm.. in other words, it works much more better than lullaby does. =P Luckily, I met some new friends in the Physics class and we talked craps or chat when we not doing our works. Haha ^^ Well, we did pay attention to the lessons when it is really important to lesson(concerning the marking scheme or tips? Well, I don't remember my teacher ever gave or not. And of course when the teacher is angry). Now, I start to talk when the lesson is on. I wonder when can I move around the class when the lesson is on. xP

Well, Chemistry is as usual. Nothing interesting. Sigh~ and I am sitting at the polar zone of the room. I nearly fall asleep every time. And in this case, it is impossible for me to listen to what the teacher said. You might don't know what I meant by "polar zone". Well, it is the place when the air-conditioner wind blow at. The focus point, the strongest site.

Accounting is as usual. Work assigned then hand up. I can concentrate in this class because I am only the Chinese guy there and the all the Chinese girls are sitting at the back. So, I have no one to chat and the teacher is just in front of me. So what to do? Do the works lo. Well, I know I done my work very fast and I heard some people complain behind me. Haha. They said I always hand up fast, then teacher gives more works. =P Well, teacher will definitely gives the work, maybe not now but later. So it doesn't matter, you still have to do the works. So it is better for me to finish them fast rather than bringing back home and do as homework. Haha.

The period I like to attend most is MATHS!!! Haha. It always full with laugh and jokes. Well, sometimes, it tends to be boring but it just minimal. But teacher tends to give many exercises. But I done them in smart way. I skipped questions and teacher seems to believe I done all. Haha. Well, sometimes, I am lazy so I done nil.

Now, I left the GP class, so I am going to miss out a lot of fun. Sigh~ GP and Maths were the two lessons I would like attend most. But now, I am only left with Maths. Haha.

Opps, I think I off topic now. Haha.

Overall, I am really getting lazier in my study. Perhaps, I am just back to what I originally am ^^ which I prefer ! =)

P.s. Anyone? I want to go out~ find me, call me, text me ^^

Labels: My World

Friday, March 07, 2008
6:18 AM

Tired? Nah~

"Tired" seems to be the useful word in the world. It is useful as in excuse oneself from troublesome tasks. It is useful as in allowing someone to be lazy anytime. It is useful as in letting oneself to rest.

And I noticed that I have been using this word quite a numerous times since last year. But am I really that tired? Hmm.. Well, I am just tired for a certain times but not all the times. I think I should control myself from using this word so often, because it does give people an impression that I am weak or I am sOoooo lazy. (Well, I am lazy). And people might think I am sick or etc. =P I am not that weak, well, I might be physically weak but not mentally weak. Hehe.

Laziness really kills me a lot. It delayed all of my stuffs. It stopped me from doing my interested stuffs.

I had been stopped updating my blog for a long time. I had been stopped updating my friendster and facebook for a long long time. Well, I felt so sorry for that. BUT! I am active now in the cyber world. I start to get into the Facebook again days ago. And also the friendster. And of course, my blog ^^ But to all these, I need support. Especially my blog. =P Support me, will ya? =/

Last time, I am like avoiding myself from the social circle. And this did weaken some of the bonds. And now, I am trying to repair all these bonds. I will try my best. Wait and see ^^

And now, I am motivating myself to get into my studies. Aiming for a better result to beautify my report ^^ Hehe.

Well, I don't know how long will my inspiration be with me. =/

So many things to do now. But not enough time. Haiz~ Time, can you stop for a while?

And is there any gathering or outing? let me know ^^ hehe =)

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Thursday, March 06, 2008
1:11 PM

我想问，但谁知道？

一个人一生中能遇到的人可能很多，也可能很少。但是当中是真心的朋友又有几个呢？或许你知道，或许你盲目看不到。

人和人的相处很奇妙。可能前一秒还是陌生的两个人，现在却是热络到不行的好朋友；可能前一秒还是热络的朋友，现在却一句话也不说，变淡了。而这就是我所体会到的。或许这是正常的；或许只是我不够积极地去维持好关系。

看到有的人说天说地，说东说西，无话不说，身边总是绕着不同的朋友。真的不知道他们到底是如何办到的。或许这就是一种特质，一种人的特质，是我们强求不来的。

有的人说，顺其自然，莫过于强求，有缘的话，不管是天涯海角，天南地北，一定会有结果的。听起来好像是有那么一般道理，但是好像又不是如此哦。不去认识的话，又怎会有结果呢？

有的人最近对我冷淡了，我有点担心，不知是我做错了什么，还是对我感到无趣了，还是之前只是应酬应酬我而已。有的人最近开始变得蛮熟了，聊天也聊得起劲，感觉不错。

有段时间我感觉累了，好像找个人说说话，谈谈心，但又不知道要谈什么。好像我一点都不了解我自己，感觉有烦恼，但又不知烦恼是什么。心有点乱，但是在乱什么呢？我想问，但谁知道？

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Tuesday, February 12, 2008
2:14 PM

Untitled post . Random

Chinese New Year has reached its mid and just 9 days left. And, I didn't do many things in this new year compared to past few years. Conclusion, I am having quite a calm and quiet new year. Well, not really quiet, because there are fireworks nearly everyday(They are really rich eh, spending so much money on those "bomb").

One more day, there comes the Valentine's day. And this definitely not a good day for the single(including me). Haiz~ looking at those couples tian-mi here and there. Well, it is actually interesting to see(for me). But.. sigh~ And I did something funny and stupid last few days. I was announcing that I am going to have a Single's party(open to all the single but not the "it's complicated", "in relationship" and "married"). Purpose: Just to "kek" some of my friends, by saying that they are not in the invited list. Haha. Well, inversely, this just shows how pity I am. Perhaps, some will just think I am jealous of them. Well, I don't know whether I am or not. =P

Oh yeah, my driving skill is much more stable now ^^ And I am going to take my driving test on next Tuesday(I know this is a bit too late but can't blame me, my teacher is too busy). Hopefully, I can pass the test. It will so embarrassing if I fail it, because all my friends passed theirs. *Praying* Hope the god of luck is with me on that day =)

Some of you might be noticed that I acted a bit different or weird(in the way, I talked and behaved). Well, I know I am, and I am sorry if I ever made you felt irritated or annoyed. Forgive me, if you can; If can't, then never mind. I know I have being teasing many people these days. Forgive my smelly mouth. =/ I am controlling now.

College life is getting bored these days. All my lessons seems so dead to me, I have lost most of my motivation and interest. Sigh~ Homeworks sound really heavy to me these days and I am really really lazy to do any of them. Conclusion, Study is definitely not my thing for this month. Hopefully, I am able to get into my studies next month or soon. =/

Anyway, this is all for today. See you all~ NiteZ~~~

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Saturday, December 01, 2007
12:37 PM

HAPPY~

It is officially that college, academic, ties, nerd-hair, black leather shoes, "working committee", teachers are all now out of my sight for a month ^^ Whoa~ let celebrate *boom boom boom*

Suppose I am happy because of this, but I am sad instead. Why? Obviously, when I am not in school, the chances for me to see my friends is small(perhaps, zero). This is the sad part of holiday. =/ I will try my best to go for any outing ^^ Hope there is many this December(of course when I am around =P)

Holiday starts and it is time to enjoy, to rest, to hang out, to be crazy, to be free.. and to do... haiz~ holiday homeworks T.T I wonder why those teachers still want us to mess up with the works when we can barely take a good rest =/ Well, I know they will just said it is good for us so that we won't forget what we had studied. duh~

Hopefully, there is someone or some books that I can copy answers from ^^ =P Lazy me~ (I don't want the study to haunt my holiday. I just want to enjoy and don't want to miss out any single fun ^^) Okay, I will set this as my holiday aim. LOL

Days earlier, people from KL and KK were back ^^ but I just managed to meet up some of them. Sigh~ I want to see all of them. (Hard to ask them out =/) And even don't know how to ask them out =/ Hopefully, there will be a big party or gathering at the end of this month =)

Oh yea, I know I am "extremely" high these days and even I can't control myself(out-of-control). Well, it is obvious if you are with me for any outings earlier. It is really happy and well, don't know how to describe when you see your friends back from other countries after a long time. It is just so HAPPY!! ^^

And, I had talked too much and sang that my throat now hurt. Hope that my throat can recover soon. I don't want my voice to become "sa-ya" or rotten. =/

Oh yea, if I had said something that hurt you or did something(harass, hit, etc) to you, I apologize. As I said, I can't control myself these days, so I apologize. Sorry~

One more thing, I know I am turning more sissy these days. But I have to say I am pure, straight.. not bi, not gay. Well, just want to make thing clear ^^ Being sissy is just to entertain you guys, I am going to stop these acts as soon as possible, so.. just wait =P I want to turn "MAN", so if you can, just guide me to the right path. =P

Anyway, I am going to end this post here. Happy Holiday to all of you ^^ Let have fun!!! Woot~

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Monday, November 26, 2007
10:55 AM

I am happy...

I am happy because just 5 days after, then holiday starts ^^

I am happy because I can leave the college out of my sight for a month ^^

I am happy because I know a better friend ^^

I am happy because I exercise after a long time ^^

I am happy because I had fun with my friends for every past events.

Lastly, I am happy BECAUSE most of my friends are coming back to Brunei and I can't wait to see them in person ^^

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Tuesday, November 20, 2007
11:30 AM

Annoyed and Happy Birthday

I am really really annoyed(plus angry) now. And of course, I have this feeling once in awhile too and definitely only after I went for a "crap-talk". This afternoon, I went to that after being absent for a long time. I rushed my classwork and I know I handed up a messy written paper to the teacher because I want to finish before 2:30pm. After that, I went to the venue but no one is there. They were still talking somewhere else. And the room was locked when I was there. They didn't ensure anything. And I thought it was only 10 of us having the meeting but some others also joined in. But I am okay with this.

Then the "meeting" started. Well, a meeting huh?! I can't imagine if this kind of meeting is going to held anywhere in the society. They are like friends meet friends in some place then sit down and talked on a certain topic. Is this a meeting? They shared their stories and made laugh and kept on went off topic. And one hour had past, but no even one topic had ended. Suppose to discuss 3 topics. And they didn't prepare anything(reference, proposal, etc) and just said we going to bring them next time so discuss next. WTH?! I am totally speechless now. I had nothing to say and no hope any longer. And now, I will wait and see how are they going to do all their "suggestions" in time and make it a success. Let see.

Stupid.. this is really stupid...

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Okay, forget about all these bad and awful stuffs. *throw it away*

Now, I would like to greet my friend, Ms Chin Jing Yi and Mr Louis Yong

A Happy sweet 18th Birthday and hope both of you enjoy this special day of you ^^

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Saturday, November 17, 2007
1:54 PM

Once in awhile

My English really poor man... At first, i thought it was "Once in a while", but it is actually "Once in awhile". And I still wondering between "Once in a while" or "Once in a time". Stupid right? haha. (Well, permission granted for you to laugh ^^ so go ahead)

Ok, back to the post topic.

Once in awhile, I am hardworking and want to be a good student with a good result. I had this thought just a few weeks ago but it faded just a few days ago. It happened quite a number of times this year, but it didn't last long(well, very obvious).

Once in awhile, I am very extra-talkative, no matter where I am, no matter what condition I am in. And I really like it because I won't feel alone or left out when I talked and people listened and talk back. ^^ But once in awhile, I am silent that I felt like leaving the society and be alone. And if this happened, it is obviously-observed through my appearance. But... who cares? right? Well, this only happened for a short time(longest, one day xP)

Once in awhile, I think a lot. Think of the past, the present, the future. And others' past, present, future as well(Just an imaginary thought for this). I know it is stupid to think of others, but too boring, what can I do? Haha xD Somehow, I am tired of thinking this and that and this makes me kinda ignore what people said and did. And after all, I felt quite guilty for doing that, because I don't like people to ignore me and yet I did to others. =/

Once in awhile, it is good to skip lessons. And I did for these days(permissions are granted). But somehow, after considering the consequences(homeworks and classworks), it is not so good to skip too frequent. And somehow, skip lessons, it will be boring and I will start to miss my class =P

Once in awhile, it is good to have a good relationship(friends), and it is good to maintain one. But after sometimes, I felt tired to do so. And this leads to a fade in friendship of mine which I don't wish to happen. But... what can I do? =/

Once in awhile, it is okay to make fun of me. For eg, you called me "gay", you lied to me, you tricked me, etc. And I am alright with it, because I know you don't have the intention. But if it happens too frequent, it is a bit too over as you know 人的忍耐是有限的. And, of course, I won't scold you and fight you, but just I felt irritated and annoyed. And put you in the situation of mine, what will you think? =/

Once in awhile, I take things seriously, even a joke. Well, I am blaming myself for this. Perhaps, I am too 天真 or just I am stupid =.=" But sometimes, I take thing not that seriously too. And so, when people do things seriously, then I am not serious, then.. you know. =/

Once in awhile, I post what I thought in my blog(just like this post) because I am letting you guys to know more about me(if you want). But of course, I won't stuffs too private. Haha. But sometimes, you might found something unexpected about me here ^^. And what I would like to say is "Explore my blog yourself =)"

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