In the morning, I went to BTC for the tennis ECA. Well, I improved this week... =D I can hit the ball more accurate than last time. Hurray~ But still I am a noob~ =P This morning was the last time for the free trial in BTC. From next week onwards, I have to pay for the membership in order to play there. The cost is acceptable but, somehow, too much for me... B$15 per month and maybe I will only go 4 times per month. Could be a waste for me... Oh ya, I will never forget the BIG BIG HOT HOT SHINING SUN!!!! It was so damn hot this morning. I can't even opened my eyes widely and estimated how the ball bounced. Sun is always my enemy but Mr Lock said that Sun is our friend. Yea... it is our friend but not a good friend... XD hahaa.....
Swifted from a tired mood to a HOT HOT HOT tempered mood... I am so teed off... blamed by someone for which I'm not the one who is wrong... What the FK! What the hell... Haiz~ if this is what I get after all these.. then... no point to continue...
Still got a lot of homeworks to do later... CHEM PHY ACC GNP... sigh~
Can I complete all these with this kind of mood? Need help from someone... haiz~
You might be wonder why have I been called "Dennis" recently... Well, this is a long long(actually not that long) story... This could be explain through the follow quote.
once upon a time, there exist a man called mr singh and a lil boy called chua wei shuian...one day.. in maktab duli.. class L5.1...in room 117..mr singh went through the attendance book... he decides to see whether chuaweishuian is in class.. so he says "DENNISS??" WAHAHAHHAHHAA-.-"! lamee-.-"!
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By that time, my Maths teacher couldn't remember my name so he called wrongly. Well, that only lasted for 2 days and I had totally forget about that until I saw CX's comment in my friendster. Then, this spreads like fire among my friends. That is why now people call me "Dennis"...
This morning was really a boring morning. I had nothing to do in the morning(actually there is... homework!!! XD but who cares?!) During my P.S, I was wandering around in the library. Moving here and there, I looked for friends to talk but there is someone who I don't know there, so I didn't manage to talk... Haiz~ Then, I ended up reading "TIMES", but I just flipped through a few pages then returned it. Then continue the wandering.. until the time ended. Oh ya, other than wandering, there is people viewing a replay of Dota in the library, so I lingered at there for a while.
Many people gathered at there that made me keep an eye on the librarian. I worried that he/she will went there and scolded us. Haiz~ I am such a coward :P... But the sake of scholarship, what can I do?
The boring lesson I had today is the Chemistry. Well, it isn't really a boring subject, but today, it is. We were asked to read through the topic at home but teacher just repeated what we had read in the class which made me not interested in listening. So, I almost fell asleep... 'o' I pulled my hair; I widen my eyes; I splashed water on my face; I kept on moving my body just to keep me awake... Haha... I did lot of stupid things right? Haha...
Next, it was the GP lesson. I thought we will be given a PS that time, but she didn't give... So, we did the work in the class... Since I was in a sleepy mood, I can't do my work well. So, I rather talk with my classmate. Somehow, I think that I still can't really talk smoothly with my classmates. Maybe we aren't in the same frequency =P Haha... Or maybe they can't get what I am going to say... Nevermind, there is a lot of time to talk...
Finally, it reached the lunch time. At first, I was about going to T.T Blues to meet TingTing, but I didn't go in the end. Where did I go? Since Peggie had her lesson started on 1pm and the weather is hot, so we went to the ICT Lab. But still nothing much to do at there. I just listened to what Peggie and her friend said in the Lab.
From I have mentioned above, I had experienced a boring boring boring day... *yawn*
I am again attracted to the world of music and dance =P
I am composing another song this moment. I have already write the lyrics and did the first phrase of it. But lack of idea for the chorus part. Haiz~ But I am sure that the song this time will be better than the previous. My previous one is quite lousy[ I have to admit that]. But it is a smooth, not lively rhythm again. Challenging 3/4 beats, don't know whether can success or not. =P
Next, I learn the dance of "表白" by Elva. It is really nice dance. It is an unisex dance, but more to guy one. It has many sharp movement in the dance. I really don't have the dancing groove. So, it is very paiseh for me to show others how I dance =P But I enjoy dancing myself.. Haha... So vain =P
People are so unsatisfied although they have everything in hand. They want more than what they have. They want more money, more friends, more relationships, more properties, more fame, more compliments, more reputation, etc. Are you satisfied with your life? No, I'm not.
Whenever we aim for something, there is always something you have to contribute or else, you won't reach/get what you want. The most common example: To get a good result, you've to contribute your time to study(you can't waste your time on going out, watching tv, chatting).
But is there really return(s) from what you have contributed? Sometimes, there is, but not all the time. Do you think it is worthy to contribute? Well, it depends.
I suppose that "maintaining" is the most difficult thing to do. It could be maintaining your weight, your result, your friendships, your relationships, your physical strength, your skills, etc. It needs a lot of contribution to reach its maximum(best) result.
Well, I am really weak in "maintaining" any thing. I am always "三分钟热度". I can't keep on doing the same thing for a long time. Somehow, it is really tired for me to maintain things, so I might gave up on it or leave it for a while then continue later. "Later" might be more than few months. Yea.. it is always after a few months, then only I will continue.
Anyway, maintaining all these are just maintaining your life. What is the purpose? To get a better life.
Friends? The crucial ingredient in the recipe of life.
Friends are everywhere and are always available for you to interact. However, there is many different friends. Can you differentiate them? Are they really friends? You might ask but still, you think they are your friends. Maybe they are really your friends, but not all of them are.
Friends who aren't beside you, are still your friends as friendship bonds are hard to break. But how to keep the bond as firm as possible? It will need your commitment, patient, and trust. Without any of these, could the friendship everlasting? You might know many people around you but who are your trusted friend?
It is ridiculous when you treat someone as your friend but he/she stabs you at the back. You will never who are them because they are too pro in pretending. What will I call them? They are just hypocrisy and don't have the value of being a friend.
Which one will you prefer? Be with someone you trust or be with someone who you don't even know anything about him/her? It is your choice. But then, it might affects your future, life and mind.
To me, I will choose to be with every of friends, no matter who they are. Of course, I will aware myself in time and protect myself from being stabbed, but still this is inevitable. I never know who stab me in the back. I suppose there is one or two.
Friendship sounds great and have many friends sounds even great. But it is hard to maintain if you're the only one to maintain. You might be fed up or even want to give up in the process. Somehow, I ever gave up and fed up in my lifetime, but I can't stand losing friends, so I try to "rescue" my friendships. It is, maybe, too late, but I won't give up. =D
I admit that I am weak in maintain my friendship with anyone. Somehow, I think I am worthless for being a friend. Once I lost contact with them or having less contact with them, the bond fades. So, I am kinda sorry to my friends who are studying abroad. I still care about you all but I don't know to show it out. Sometimes in a while, I will greet you and wish you luck, but after that, I am like lost again. You might think that I am just finding excuses for myself, but really, I want to maintain it. Well, it is up to you whether you believe or not.
But I believe that once we're friends, we're friends forever.
OMG?!! What am I doing now? I am uploading my recording with my voice to my blog. So paiseh leh. But just want to show it out and share with you people. Sorry if my voice make you puke or whatever. Hehe... Hope you enjoy it(like you will). =D
Am I under another changing phase? Maybe I am, but it is unnoticeable. If I am, will it be positively or negatively?
Well, I realize that I wasted a lot of precious time without doing any thing memorable and smartly. What I had done is just stupid yet childish things. Acting like a stupid kid while having a thought that I grew mature. Indeed, I wasn't. Now, am I? Maybe just a slight mature-grown. By the way, what is the real definition or concept of being matured? The way we talk; the way we react; the way we behave?
If I am going to go through a change, how would I want to turn to?
It's now on the the threshold of the journey. The first part is to recall... recall the past memories...
It was a turning point of my life. A great turning point, I suppose. It made me change to another one with better characteristics and thoughts. From an annoyed one to a slight matured one. Indeed, I really want to thank a particular person.
I change in both positive and negative ways. And I work hard to be more positive but it's hard. Positively, I motivate myself; I start to lay trust on others. Negatively, sensitiveness and jealousy grow in my mind.
That period brought me a lot of happy moments and unforgettable memories. By that time, my society of friends develops well. This could be one of the greatest impact of my change.
Somehow I am lost in my life. I don't know who am I and where is my destination. Being lost isn't a good thing. Well, it might be good in some way, but for me, it isn't.
What I actually aim for? What I actually want? Sometimes, I even questioned myself on my behavior, action and talking. I seem like I can't control myself; there is someone else controlling my mind.
People is happy to be with friends and this tend to be true but where are them when I need them? Years by years, I still lost... Where am I belong to? Am I happy with my current situation or life? Or I want more of it? Sigh~
Does it ever exist in this world or in my lifetime? It did exist but it went off again. People are hypocrisy. Is there any exception? Sigh~
Sometimes, people might be good to each other but what about the next moment, next day? Will it still be the same?
Pretending is just what everyone does in this world. Hiding the truth, hiding themselves, hiding everything, and show another totally different character to the public. So who is real and who is fake, can anyone tell?
A long time didn't post anything but I had been visiting my blog recently.. Haha...
Anyway, life seems spiced up a lot these few days. Of course, study isn't included. Haha...
Now, I'll talk about what I have been doing other than homeworks and projects.
Let start with tennis. Whoa~ I never knew that sport could be that fun. And never expect that tennis could be that fun too. But the basic is quite hard to master. However, I didn't pay much attention to the basic but straightaway having duel with my friends. I played a lot this Friday without taking much rest. Well, I still suck in hitting the ball accurately. Sigh~ always miss the ball. Haha... Well, I'm going to improve myself next time.
Next, continue with an movie out-going on this Thursday. It was a huge movie out-going group. There was about 20~21 people(boys and girls). We were watching Spiderman 3. That movie is quite ok with the good visual and sound effect but for me, the ending is quite fast and unsatisfied. Nothing much I could talk about the movie. If you want to know more about the detail, just buy a ticket and watch the movie. After the movie, the boys were about to go back. By that time, it was still early for me, so I went to Coffee zone with the girls. Doing what? nothing to be expected but just talking and laughing. Well, I met a nice guy that day. He has a good sense of humor and good social skill. Overall, a nice guy to be with.
Next, let continue with the ever craziest night which last night!!! They named it as "会心一笑俱乐部-狂欢之夜". It was a surprise birthday organized for Lu. It was hard to keep this as secret in front of her. Some of us were about to break the surprise but lastly, the surprise was a success. Oh... just the cake part was not that successful due to ... Haha... All the candles were nearly extinguish when Lu entered the room. Haha.. The party started to go wild when the karaoke was played. By that time, I was the only guy so they called me as their "sista" Haha.. We sang from 7+pm till nearly 12am. And I didn't know what had happened to me. I was too high and crazy that keep on doing stupid thing. And I keep on snatching the mic and sang. I think last night was the only night that I had sang that much. And when it was about 10pm, another guy,IngSiang came. So I wasn't the only guy. But he seems like afraid I will rape him.. Haha... I won't because I'm not a gay... I am pure straight and pure guy and I love girls... Haha... Maybe my action can't prove that... Haha... Oh ya, I miss the "twinkle twinkle little star"(Caiyen's favourite song)!!! Some people might have heard that song, then you'll know what I mean. Overall, it was a fun night. Anticipating another crazy night to come soon!!! Sorry, I didn't have any photo to share so it is hard for me to express the craziness of that night. IngSiang got the photo, so let wait for him. =D
Ok... all these ended the exciting week of mine. How about you? =D
Lastly, Happy Mothers' Day to all the mothers!!! =D
Derick Chua, the owner of this boring blog. He is going to hit 21 by 12 Nov 2010 which is a sad thing because it sounds really old.
He is currently studying MORSE in Uni. of Warwick which he struggles a lot but he believe he can overcome all obstacles one day(hmm...).
He is a great musics lover and he is yet to be a good composer(hopefully a great one in the future). He is always a clown in front of people.
The biggest lies that he ever told are: he is shy and he is gorgeous superstar(LOL). Well well well.. overall Derick is CRAZY.
