Just now, I cut my hair and quite satisfied with my current hairstyle. Why I cut my hair? Because of the stupid college rule(I hate it). Actually, I was going to meet KiSS at the mall because he is leaving to Kuching. But! B-U-T, I realised that I don't have his number nor Jeffrey's(I was told by KiSS that he is going to meet Jeffrey). And my mom said that she want to go Kiulap, so in a rush I entered the car and went to Kiulap. Sorry, KiSS. I wasn't meant to that. But I asked my mom to be fast so that I could went to the Mall at around 5pm(I thought I should be able to see KiSS)
However, I couldn't find them in the Mall. Along the way, I saw "James". And his friends were leaving him so both of us walked to the arcade. In the arcade, we saw IS, Hon, Kay and ShiHao. Then we lingered at there. Next, I saw WeiXiong walked into the arcade and Tee went with him. Left me with them. After a while, I left without being notice. Well, the atmosphere is weird, so it is better to leave.
Next, I wandered around in the mall from the 3rd floor to ground floor and from ground floor to 3rd floor. Around 6.20pm, I saw JinHua and Johnathan Nyau in front of the entrance. Next came SoonKet. It has been a long time since I last saw them. Then we walked to the Riqzun Lobby and chat at there. After a while, the manager told us to leave as the table and chairs are only for the guest use. So pai-seh ler. Then we moved to Chill. JinHua was hungry that time.
Finally, Rebecca arrived. We talked for a while and then they want to watch movie. They watched the movie but I didn't. I got family function after 8pm so I went home earlier. I took a video from Rebecca and I had uploaded it. (You should have see something below) Then I said farewell to her outside the cinema. And that finished my post today.
Anyway, take a view on the video(sorry that the video quality is quite bad).
I don't know what to title this post. I can't think of a title nor what am I going to write for this post.
To readers, this post is nothing but my thoughts and feelings. So if you aren't interested, you could just skip this and close your explorer or proceed to another site.
Midnight is really a great timing for expressing me perfectly. All my thoughts and feelings (mostly negative) rouse and I can write more about myself and my view towards some stuffs.
~Begin~
You are happy to be with someone and make fun with each other; You share things with him/her and so he/she does; You feel lucky to have him/her by your side and you're glad that he/she can help you when you're in need. This kind of people is what we called "Friend". However, there is still a probability that you might betray her. How? Stab him/her at their backs; take advantage of him/her; betray his/her trust.
You think your friends won't betray you or talk something bad about you at your back, but are you really sure? I suppose there is people stabbing me or spreading something bad about me. But this is inevitable, so I will just tolerate it. However, I haven't heard of one now. And there is no point for me to find them out, so if there is, just let it be.
Friendship won't last long. Why? There are various factors which affect the bond between people. Time is one of them. As the time passes, the relationship will sure fade out. Well, it might not be significance and we can't say that there isn't. Despite how good the friendships you people have, it might changes within a second. And we won't know when it will happen.
So, after all these, I wonder does "long-lasted friendship" really existing? Maybe there is, but rare.
~ Continue ~
Do I really possess the talent of music? I think I'm not. I did a lot of composition in the past but never upload it to the internet before. And this year, I decided to share it in my blog. I don't know whether my decision is wrong or not. I keep on telling my readers and my friends about my composition and I know some people will said that I am arrogant and look down at them. Well, I did hear of this. This really makes me feel sad and sorry. I have never turned to be arrogant and ever look down at anyone before. And the most important is that I hate those arrogant people and hate people who look down at people. Just because they are great and skilled in some fields, they think they are qualified to be arrogant. What is this? You might be the best now, but it will not be forever. You think you're great; indeed, you're just a tiny person in the world. There is always someone who is far beyond you. So never try to be an arrogant person, it will make people hate you and keep a distance with you. Learn to be humble. Well, I'm arrogant and yet I'm not humble enough too. And I'm in the learning stage.
Anyway, back to the topic. =P
My composition is weak in skill, in performance, in content. And I know all these. Some people praised me for my composition and I really appreciate that because you did listened to my composition and with the smile on your face, I think it is an honest compliment. Thanks for that. I learned piano for only 2 years in a music school, so my piano skill is limited. Never think that I am great in piano. I am just a passionate piano-lover and I never claimed myself a "pianist" because I haven't reach that level. It isn't easy to learn to piano but it is worth to learn one but of course when you learn it with enthusiasm. Or else, you will just wasting your precious time. Recently, I have come out with a lyric and I had showed it to KiSS and he said this one is better than the previous. And I'm happy with that comment because I have improved. And I am always waiting for any comments on my composition but there isn't much. But people did tell me that they listened to it. I never knew who had listened to it. Due to this, I might lose some motivation to continue my composition. But I will never give up on this.
~ Continue ~
Well, my next topic is about my result, my academic result. Somehow, I think I am not supposed to deserve my O level result. I know many people are shocked with it, and so I did. I know myself, I am weak in academic. But I really did try hard for my exam. I did lot of revisions for it. During the exam period, my house was full with trouble, and I was really really depressed that time. I was worrying about my exam and my family at the same time. And I rarely slept well. Under this circumstance, I had never expected this shocking result. With this result, people who don't know me think that I am smart and I am nerd. Well, I am indeed a normal student with a moderate result. Nothing is special about me. In addition, I am a normal people with not charming characteristic, low sense of existence, annoying characteristic, insulting and teasing ability. Unlike my friends, they are great and famous among people.
If you wonder how I deal with all these negative thoughts and feelings, you will find the answer here. I am always alone and I get used to it. Whenever I am depressed or sad, I will counsel myself in my mind. I will start asking myself various questions and with myself answer every single question. It is really suffering but this is the only way I can do. Or else, you will be seeing a moody one wandering around (or I suppose you won't notice). I am telling myself to be cheerful but sometimes, the negative side is too strong that have overwhelmed me, so I will be moody for days. But it disappears really soon. I don't think there is someone who will worry about me, so there is no point of showing my negative side. I have a weak mental and a sensitive mind. I hate myself for these. I am always paranoid over major/minor stuffs. And I am unable to control myself for that.
Well, I did try to seek help from others, but it failed. Maybe I am the kind of person who can't really share myself with others, I mean sharing of inner stuffs.
~ End ~
Alright, I think this is enough for today. And I will write more next time. If you are willing to read, just drop here a visit when you're free. Good night.
I hate you, I really really hate you(homeworks). You have successfully spoil my relaxing holiday mood. Sigh... Derick is doing his holiday homeworks, well, this never happened before when he was in his secondary and primary school. And now, everything changes, so he has to do.
I should have done my homeworks when the holiday just began, then I won't be busy during the last day of the holiday, to complete all my unfinished works. The only subject that I completed is Accounting. And for Physics and Mathematics, I am like "oh my god". I don't even know what the Physics question stated and where to look for the answer. For Maths, quite a number of questions I don't know to start with. Maybe I'm still in my holiday mood, so can't concentrate my works. Whenever I finished one question, then I will start wandering around in my house, walking here and there, or, click on my mouse browsing the net. Then after 20 minutes ~ 60 minutes, only I walk back to my bed and continue with works.
Now, my bed is full with papers and still I'm posting here. Haha...
"This is what happen if you didn't do your homework"
Anyway, enjoy the last day of the holiday and see you all in college tomorrow morning =D
Look back to what I had done for my holiday... Whoa~ I have been wasting my precious time. I spent them in front of my internet, watching television. And, did a stupid thing, which is composing a fail song... Sigh~ As KiSS said, it indeed is corny. Well, I agree with him too and this is also the main reason which I stopped for the rest composition. Though, I wrote another lyrics and this time I think it is much more better than this one. And currently, it is under the construction. So it might be out around July.
Honestly, I don't think I enjoyed my holiday much. Nothing special happened and nothing interesting happened. Perhaps, due my no-ren-yuan, my life is monotonous. Here, I would like to thank YiHuey for borrowing me the Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince which helped me to kill lot of boredom. I read this book last year, but I kindly forget what is the content and the last book is going to release very soon so I have to read Book 6 again(to recall). By the way, there is a news that someone accidentally post the story of the last book into the website, and it stated that Hermione died when she saved Ron from Voldermort. But I don't know whether this is true or not. And I am anticipating the last book and also the movie.
Speaking of movie, my dad bought a home theater system which make me at least not that boring these 2 days. I really like surround sound system, that is so exciting.. haha... I watched HarryPotter Movie 2 this afternoon and it is great. And going to watch Movie 3 and 4 again tomorrow. Hehe...
So this is what I had for my holiday. How about you?
Yea, as the title written, I'm on the way to the full composition of my new song.
The name of this song is not yet confirmed, so it will remains as "寻找 Searching" at this moment. Anyway, I have upload the demo version of the chorus part. You can find it in [My lounge] section and it is the 1st track. And sorry for that there is some keys wrongly pressed in the middle of the demo. Along this holiday, I think I will upload some other parts if only they are completed and confirmed. Then, around this month, the whole song will be completed(I wish). Lyrics is still under construction. To those who waiting, be patient. =D
By the way, I had removed the "握不住的他" from the playlist because it is a failure. =P I just upload it for fun. The full and confirmed recording will be upload within this year(I think). So wait~
Anyway, comment on the demo and maybe you got some nice melody, you can tell me. I will take into account and credit to you. I appreciate every suggestions and comments from you guys, so be welcome to comment on it =D
Well, nothing to celebrate about... just that I can't believe that I can continue blogging for this long. Yeah! Hope I won't give up my blog one day.. and this will need the support from all of you. Visit here and leave more messages will make me more active in blogging. =D
Oh ya, more and more people told me they had visited my blog and read the post "My Recording" and gave me positive comment. I appreciate all the compliments and I am happy of that. Hope my recording really make you enjoy but not make you suffer. XD
Just a notice for all readers, the next recording will be up soon(if I'm satisfied with it =P). If you're looking forward to it, then be patient; If you're not looking forward to it, just ignore this. I suppose there are people who laugh at my recording, but I'm not angry of that because I know I am weak in singing. I just want to share Xp
What next? Oh ya, this afternoon, I had come out with a smooth melody and I think I will use that for my latest composed song. I'm looking forward to it. I think it is way better than the previous one. Now, I am lack of idea for the lyrics part. This moment, I think my Chinese is getting worse. Haiz~
Suddenly, a boring holiday turns up to a lively and meaningful holiday. And I'm going to re-read the Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. And, I'm looking forward to the Book 7 and the Movie 5.
A lot of "looking forward" =D Life is getting nicer and meaningful!!! How about you? =)
Oh my god!!! The Student Affairs Section of Maktab Duli called me this afternoon. I was so shocked at first. The head told me that she is going to interview me for the application of Student Council in MD. Whoa~ A phone interview... never experience before. I was getting nervous as we talked. Expected and typical questions. So I gave her typical and model answer. Haha... =.="
Don't know whether I pass the interview or not. Somehow, I don't feel like to become a student council. Reason? Don't know.. just don't feel like to. Maybe I lost the enthusiasm of becoming one. Anyway, for the sake of my CV, so it is better that I become one. =P
Well, today I have a boring day...*yawn* What next? Another few hours, it is tomorrow~
Finally I can relax for 2 weeks after months of studies(didn't I relax everyday?). It is Holiday now. I think it will a boring and monotonous holiday and my life will just fill up with laptop, internet, music and anime. Holiday is always a good time for the students to go out; to hang out; to shop and etc but I don't think I will have much this time. Reason? Don't know.
By the way, those who are back to Brunei from KK and KL returned to their respective countries. So, I could only wish them good luck and all the best on their studies. And again, I'm going to miss you all again although I didn't interact much with you guys this time. But still, I believe "Friends always =D"
So what am I going to do in my holiday? Of course, I have to do my homeworks.. there is a lot, man. But don't know when will I finish them. Ignore the homework, it just spoils my mood. =P
Recently, I am doing another recording and composing another song which I wish it could be done within this holiday. Well, I wonder that whether is it bad to upload my recording... I just want to share something that is about me but with the lousy singing skill, I wonder...
About the new song composition, I have already done the chorus and opening, now left the lyrics editing and melody editing. Hope this composition is better than the previous one, I found that the previous is quite lousy.
The old Derick is back now!!! The one who doesn't do his homeworks, talks nonsense, fools around, gossips, doesn't study well for his tests, and etc. All the original and bad characteristics are now back!!! Haha...
Actually, it isn't good for them to return but their return make me relax as my pace of life doesn't progress that fast any longer. And, I like them very much since they are with me for all study life from kindergarten till secondary.
Well, it could be bad for me as it affects my academic performance(do I have a good one?). Haha...
In MD, my classmates think that I am a hardworking and obedient nerd. Haha... If you do think this way, then you're wrong. My friends know me well... I am lazy to do any works yet lazy to copy stuffs; I am, sometimes, against the rule(but not too over). AM I A NERD??!?!?! Nah~ I'll never have any relation with that word. =D
So, just FYI that Derick is back. And sorry for not updating my blog for such a long time. And is there readers visiting my blog ka?
I had been busy with formatting my laptop these few days. There is virus in my XP disc so when I formatted my laptop, the virus installed into my laptop and invaded my laptop. Until today, I bought a new disc and did the formatting again and this time, it works... no more virus~ YEAH~~~!!! Now, no need to spend B$30 for the formatting anymore, I can do it myself now~ HEHE!!!
Friends are back from KK and KL... but life is still the same... nothing changes much and nothing special happen. Guess what... It is quite hard to communicate with them.. it is unlike the past, we can just talk anything around us; now, if you're going to talk things happen around you, they might get bored of that and same goes to us. I feel guilty for that and some of them might think that I/we are ignoring them. Yea.. I think they think this way because I can feel that too. Sigh~
Anyway, we had a few outings last few days. The movie outing on last Saturday to watch the Pirates of Carribean 3. When I reached there, I saw GheeVui, PeiYi and Shirley, whoa~ I miss them eh... but only managed to talk to GheeVui. Luckily, we can still chat~ =D Then came Desmond, ZongLin and ShueKang, glad to see them in Brunei again but for them, unfortunately, we didn't talk much. haiz~ Forgive me, dude~
The movie is nice and quite worth to watch. But my friend said that it is bad and he gave it a rate of 2/10 stars. For it worths 8/10 stars. I think there is Part 4 next year. I anticipate the next one. Heard that Singapore that movie due to the sentence "Welcome to Singapore" in the movie. I feel sad for the Singaporean that they can't enjoy this movie.
Jump to this wednesday which is last 2 days. That day was our gathering in TT Blues. Well, I didn't really "get high" that day and kind of not enjoy it. I hate the "bu yong" action, make me feel isolated and sad... Haiz~ I know I am annoying in some ways, but I thought it will bring a lot of fun to the gathering. I am just making myself as a clown. As I had said before, the gathering sure break into parts and yea, it did. Everyone was doing their own stuffs. I really don't know where to go and where to stay and where to play around. I hate that... Anyway, it was still a gathering so let just treat it as a gathering.
Derick Chua, the owner of this boring blog. He is going to hit 21 by 12 Nov 2010 which is a sad thing because it sounds really old.
He is currently studying MORSE in Uni. of Warwick which he struggles a lot but he believe he can overcome all obstacles one day(hmm...).
He is a great musics lover and he is yet to be a good composer(hopefully a great one in the future). He is always a clown in front of people.
The biggest lies that he ever told are: he is shy and he is gorgeous superstar(LOL). Well well well.. overall Derick is CRAZY.
