Saturday, August 23, 2008
1:00 PM
Sudden depression
Chemistry Paper 5 is not hard but a disaster for me =/ I did badly this time... haha... but I'm not sad for this because I didn't prepared much for it. Well, I just revised all the planning around 1am yesterday night after I watched the One million star season 3.

And I slept around 3am and woke up at 9am. I was thinking whether or not I should go school so early? And in the end, I went =P at around 10:30am. Being too high and crazy in the morning, and brain power used up in the afternoon, I was very tired and I took a nap in the afternoon. My last afternoon nap was weeks ago. HAHA

During the nap, I had some bad dream which caused me in a sudden depression now. Well, I actually forgot what my dream is about. Just that the bad and sad feeling is still inside me. =/

When I woke up, I started to do some thinking, more to my life and more to my circle. I found myself being too extreme about everything which I hate myself for. No one ever did bad to me, just that I hate people for no reason =/ and to those who care about me, I felt annoyed. Well, I don't know what happened to me. So, I guess these days I will be in a terrible mood swing, so think twice before you joke to me =/ Sigh~

Regarding my post about my friend in my previous post. Okay, I feel kind of guilty now. =/ I know I am too sensitive to everything and being too panaroid everytime. Know what, I just don't feel like losing this friend.

That night, I talked to someone about this and he said just treat him as how he treat you. Well, I understand, but I can't.

Oh gosh... I really don't know what to do now. I sense that the friendship bond is breaking now. I guess that the guy had read my blog and start to ignore me in life. =/ Sigh~

Actually, it is really hard for me to hate anyone. And this happened only once or twice in my life(till now). So, as this guy never did thing that is unforgiveable, so what is the reason for me to stay away from him? =/

Someone ever told me that you won't want a small thing to spoil the friendship right? Yeah, I don't want. Haha...

Anyway, one more test to go~ and hopefully everything will be alright after this mock. Sigh~

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