Share this song with you guys. I like the way it express and the scene it gives.
[不，完美]
你常常说 我很完美 没人能取代 我给的一切 我就以为 我努力更完美 我们 就会永远
完美并不美 我们多虚伪 你让我的好 变成一种罪 完美并不美 当你爱了谁 我的完美也只是 不完美
后来你说 我太完美 值得更好的 陪在我身边 你不是我 你怎么能体会 你有 多么珍贵
完美并不美 我们多虚伪 你让我的好 变成一种罪 完美并不美 当你爱了谁 我的完美也只是 不完美
完美并不美 我们多虚伪 你让我的好 变成一种罪 完美并不美 当你爱了谁 我的完美成了 罪
I am addicted to this song recently. This is a new song from his latest album. Another three beats song with soft melody.
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It is true that if you are trying to make something perfect, in the end, it is not perfect. And because of this, you might lose something in the end.
So, if you want thing to be perfect, it is just to spoil something that is going to be perfect, and never try to make thing too perfect in your way, and better let thing be perfect naturally in its way. This is what I believe now. =S
Last day of the mock~ First day of the temporary freedom~ WOO~
Physics is not with me for this mock. I think I probably get a low pass mark or maybe fail it?! HAHA. But I don't feel sad because I didn't put much effort in it. On last Saturday which I could have studied Physics, I chose to take a good rest because I have the whole Sunday to study. But who know, Sunday morning, I took out my Digimon disc and watched and GET ADDICTED!!! OMG?! I could studied at all for the whole morning and afternoon. Then I forced myself to study at night but I forgot the Olympic closing ceremony. And this is really a big distraction to me. So, I end up sitting in front of my television and watched!!! Then finally I got some times to study which is around 11pm. But then, I can't stand the temptation of my digimon disc, then I played and watched again till 2am. By that time, I know I should did bad for my physics. =/ But still, I don't care at all.
Well, mock end now!!! Next is to take a good rest and be happy before the papers are returned. Gotta make some plan before this precious holiday end. ^^
Chemistry Paper 5 is not hard but a disaster for me =/ I did badly this time... haha... but I'm not sad for this because I didn't prepared much for it. Well, I just revised all the planning around 1am yesterday night after I watched the One million star season 3.
And I slept around 3am and woke up at 9am. I was thinking whether or not I should go school so early? And in the end, I went =P at around 10:30am. Being too high and crazy in the morning, and brain power used up in the afternoon, I was very tired and I took a nap in the afternoon. My last afternoon nap was weeks ago. HAHA
During the nap, I had some bad dream which caused me in a sudden depression now. Well, I actually forgot what my dream is about. Just that the bad and sad feeling is still inside me. =/
When I woke up, I started to do some thinking, more to my life and more to my circle. I found myself being too extreme about everything which I hate myself for. No one ever did bad to me, just that I hate people for no reason =/ and to those who care about me, I felt annoyed. Well, I don't know what happened to me. So, I guess these days I will be in a terrible mood swing, so think twice before you joke to me =/ Sigh~
Regarding my post about my friend in my previous post. Okay, I feel kind of guilty now. =/ I know I am too sensitive to everything and being too panaroid everytime. Know what, I just don't feel like losing this friend.
That night, I talked to someone about this and he said just treat him as how he treat you. Well, I understand, but I can't.
Oh gosh... I really don't know what to do now. I sense that the friendship bond is breaking now. I guess that the guy had read my blog and start to ignore me in life. =/ Sigh~
Actually, it is really hard for me to hate anyone. And this happened only once or twice in my life(till now). So, as this guy never did thing that is unforgiveable, so what is the reason for me to stay away from him? =/
Someone ever told me that you won't want a small thing to spoil the friendship right? Yeah, I don't want. Haha...
Anyway, one more test to go~ and hopefully everything will be alright after this mock. Sigh~
Hey everyone~ Finally, after two days 不眠不休 non-stop tidying, arranging and cleaning... my room has changed its internal arrangement~! All these is because a new member has joined me in my room. It is entirely huge, so I need rearrange my room setup. The new member is my wardrobe~
As I said before, none of my furniture in my room is taller than me~ but now this wardrobe is taller than. =/ So scare later got spider or huge insects hide above my wardrobe. =S I hate that~ because that ever happened when I had my previous wardrobe. Well, despite all these, I like my wardrobe~
Now, take a look at my "new" room~
My original bed and its original position. Except that the place I put things is cleaner and tidier now =P And again, my lovely bedsheet~ <3
WOO~ The main character of today. But then I am taking with my phone so not that clear. However, you see the big mirror~~ And the sliding door. Oh yea~ there is bulb built in the wardrobe~ romantic eh~ Due to these three things, I bought it =P And, phew~ luckily it can takes all my clothes.
My so-called bookshelf and my mahjong table. I moved the shelf next to my door now. And it is not longer bookshelf(except the bottom part). Most likely, my store for facial stuffs and foods~
My home theater and television. Now I put all the speakers together. Ohh.. and my PS2 at the bottom. =P And you see a doraemon there? It is actually my door mat but I don't feel like to step on Doraemon. XDDDD
My lamp and my beloved piano~ And with the background of memories~ =)
The biggest news for today in Brunei is the release of GCE O and A level result. Finally, after a long times... Since we knew that it had arrived in Brunei like week ago... HAHA
Again, I am shocked by my result just like last year and the year before. I predicted "abb" "abc" "acc" for this times but phew~~~ the god of luck is with me again =) And now, I no need to retake those papers again this November =) that I can totally concentrate on my A2 components. Hopefully a straight A for my A level. ^^ But that also means that I need to put double effort to ensure an A in A2. =/ But seems September holiday is so long, I think I can. =)
Congratulation to those who get good result. And Cheers to those who didn't do well this time. Well, this is not the last chance, still got November =)
I had my Mathematics yesterday. The papers were not really hard but I just need extra time for checking and solving. Then today was a tough war for me =/ Accounting in the morning and Chemistry in the noon. Woo~ And yet, I was not motivated to study for them. But both the papers were quite fair, as long as you studied then you can do and of course with extra care. I did a stupid careless mistake in my accounting. ARghHHH! Feel like killing myself. How could I did that =S Chemistry is a lot man... have to keep on doing without taking any rest. Same to chemistry, as long as you studied, you can answer. However, I didn't study too detail for this mock, so I am not expected for a good score.=/
And now, my next test is on Saturday afternoon which means I can take a good rest now, doing my own stuffs =) Today, my wardrobe finally arrived(well, I just bought yesterday). A two sliding door with a big mirror attached to one door. I kinda like it but it seems big in my room. Later, I am going to rearrange my room. Change the stuffs position(change feng-shui). HAHA. Guess somewhile later, I will post "My Room @ 2008" soon. And of course with photo. So if you're interested. Stay tune~ =)
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Many stuffs happened these days that lead me to do deep thinking. About my life, my circle and my future. This is really annoying and suffering because I always tend to think of the bad side. =/
My life. Honestly speaking, I am not really satisfying with my current life. It is sort of dull and monotonous. I really need some events or "ingredient" to spice it up. Everyday is just the same routine: School, home, out(limteh) and repeat again. I want something more special that can my life more memorable. But I think nothing will be up till the exam finish. =/
My circle. I glad I know few good friends this year and of course how treasurable the friendship is. Of course, out of these, I also learn that not everyone is your friend. Maybe I was once his friend, but I am not now. Well, actually this is kinda "sad" that I lose this friend but what can I do because I was not his friend in his mind I think. Despite how good I treated him, the relationship seems further part. Even outsider can sense that. So, should I continue to act blind? HAHA The reason that he gave me was that I too "stick" to him so he chose to interact less with me ! Okay, I was kinda pissed off by that stupid reason. Because I treat him as my friend, so when I am out, I ask him to go out. When he was alone, I chose to stay and talk with him. When he got problem, I help him to sort out... and now this is the reason that this friendship fade. =.=" Well, if you are not my friend, why would I bother to talk with you, ask you out, help you... Maybe just that in your view, I am not a good friend. HAHA or Maybe we are not meant to be friend at all. So what can I do? Less interact? Maybe this is the only solution that is good for us.
As I read XiaXue's blog and I found what she said is quite true. This kind of people just don't respect the relationship. =/ So, I don't know what is the point to continue. =S
Anyway, those good/close friends are really good and caring. When I am down, they are there to listen. When I am pissed-off, they tried to make my laugh. When I am boring, we go out. When I am high, they high with me. When I am in trouble, they help me to sort them out.
I am so lucky to know you guys and be friend with~ HAHA And I believe this is what really a friend do. The reason to be friend =) We enjoy the fun together, we suffer the bad together (有难同当，有福同享).
My future. Okay, this is really headache. As soon as A level end, there comes those application to university. And yet, I am not really sure that what am I going to study and where to study. And I don't think I am eligible to any scholarship based on my not motivated study mood. xD And yet, I dream a lot of good future despite the poor performance of my academic. LOL
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Okay, I guess I need to clean my room now =) Anyway, appreciate your reading and visiting to my blog =)
I feel that I am going to have a fever soon which I hope I am wrong. =/ I don't want a fever during my exam. It will definitely spoil my thinking and analytical skills. I always sweat and feel really hot these days even though I on my aircon and have it blow directly at me at its lowest temperature. Haiz~~~ Hope I can get well as soon as possible.
Next thing is that I really need someone to punch me to wake me up. Pull me from my laziness to my motivation!!! Mock is really important to me and yet I still haven't touched any of my subjects just except those revisions done in my class which I simply wrote answer without refering to the notes(almost all wrong). I thought I can get motivated when I realised I really know nothing of those subjects but it seems like none of them really frightened me =/ Oh gosh.. what can I do now? Hope by tomorrow, I can at least finish studying my Chemistry application.
Another thing is that I feel so bad because I am spoiling my own friendship which I just realised. Before, I thought it was my friend doing that but it was actually me. Being too panaroid and over-react to everything. And being too "sticky" to my friend causes a distance in between. =/ Guess, I really need to hit myself very hard to wake myself up. Stop all these stupid stuffs. HAHA
Anyway, just now went to play Rummy again. This time, I shared with Calvin and won $49 altogether. HAHA... =P I think I get banned by them soon. HAHA
Want to know why u r working so hard? On the very first day of the world, God created the cow. He said to the cow: 'Ah Gu (cow), today I have created you! Your job is to go to the field with the farmer all day long. You will provide the energy to pull things! You will also provide milk for people to drink! You are to work all day under the sun! In return, you will only eat grass. For that, you will have a life span of 50 years.'
Ah Gu objected. 'What.. I work all day in the sun and I get only to eat grass! On top of that, I have to give my milk away! This is tough and you want me to live 50 years! I'll take 20 and you can have the remaining 30 years back!'
God agreed.
On the next day, God created the dog.
He said to the dog. 'Ah Kow (dog), I have created you for a purpose. You are to sit all day by the door of your master's house! Should anyone come in, you are to bark at them! In return, you will eat your master's leftovers. I'll give you a life span of 20 years.'
Ah Kow objected. 'What! I have to sit by the door all day and will need to bark at people, and what do I get...LEFTOVERS... This isn't right, I'll take 10 and you can have the remaining 10 years back!'God agreed again.
On the third day, God created the monkey.
He said to the monkey. 'Lao Kao (monkey), your job is to entertain people. You will make them laugh, act stupid and make faces! You will also do somersaults and swing on trees to amaze them. In return, you will get to eat bananas and peanuts. For that, I'll give you 20 years to live.'
Naturally the monkey objected. 'This is ridiculous, I gotta make faces and make people laugh let not even come to the part about the trees and somersaults. Tell you what, I'll give 10 years of my life to thank you for my existence and I'll take 10. What do you think?' God agreed again.
On the forth day, God created humans.
God said to the man. 'You are my best piece of work, for that, you will only need to sleep, eat, sleep, play, eat, sleep again and do nothing else.You will get to eat all the best things and play with the best toys. All you need to do is enjoy all your life. For this kinda of life, I'll give you 20 years.'
Just like the rest, the man objected. 'What, all I need to do is relax and enjoy myself and I have only 20 years to live? Tell you what, you've 30 years back from Ah Gu, 10 years from Ah Kow and another 10 from Lao Kao and you probably don't know what to do with all those lifes. Why not I take them all and I'll have 70 years to live?'
God being such good natured, agreed with a smile.....
AND THAT IS WHY..... We eat, sleep, play and enjoy for the first 20 years of our lives when we are growing up. Work like a cow for the next 30 to raise our family. Sit outside the door and bark at people for the next 10 when we are retired. And finally, we make faces and perform monkey tricks to entertain our grandchildren for the final 10 years. GET IT ?????
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This is actually a forward email from my auntie. I found it quite interesting so I share here =)
How is the clip I posted lately? I found it really funny when Robinson saw my foot-thumb. LOL The way he express!!! Cool!!! I can't control myself for replaying that part again and again. HAHA
Oh yea, I want to congrats one person that successfully built up the anger in me. Spoil my mood and everything. Congratulations =) =/
Okay, back to my life.
This afternoon, during the lunch break, instead of going out eat lunch, I went to LT12 with Eric but he insisted to stay at the ground floor but I want to go to the first floor, so we split there. HAHA
Entered LT12. Oh my god! China Town!!! HAHA. All my friends were there, playing, eating, talking. Then I showed my songs lyrics to WanSien and EngYun, they said the lyrics is good and somehow touching. =) Then WanSien left and because EngYun didn't ever listen to any of my song(So, she never been to this blog before), so I found a song in my phone and show it to her. She was shocked and asked me whether that is my vocal. HAHA She said it is very different. She said the vocal inside is more man than the real life one. LOL Is it? I guess she is right. =P
Well, now I feel like compose more songs and write more lyrics. Recently, I am thinking of making a duet but who will help me? HAHA. I don't know how to write the notes for duet =/ So hard man...
But anyway, exam is here so I can't make anything big enough to stop me from studying now. =P So after the mock, definitely =)
A lot of things happened on and around me. Good and bad stuffs. And I think there were too much for me take. So, mood these days wasn't so stable. So, sorry to those who I offend. And of course, not sorry to those who offend me =)Serious stuffs happened that made me have a better idea that who are really my friends and who are not. So, I should be thankful that this accident happened =/ ? LOL . But due to this, I was about to shrink my social circle. HAHA
Well, back to my life. I want to share a horror short film, they named this "cloverfield". Brief to the clip: Scary thing appear! Then they managed to fight against it. What happened? Watch the video yourself. =)
Oh yea, this morning when I went to the library. I saw the newspaper showing the olympic news. And I think this is in Beijing and know what? I saw Brunei FLAG fly there~~~ o.o Well, now should be proud to be a Bruneian? Now, Brunei is well-known all over the world I think. So, no worry when I tell people I am from Brunei. They won't be asking questions like "where is Brunei" "Is Brunei a part of Malaysia" etc...
This morning, during my Physics lesson. My lecturer was quite angry on us because we all are like no motivation at all. He said that last year he still can see flame burn in our eyes but now, he can only see dim candle light in our eyes. He asked us better to punch ourselves so that we can wake up and start studying! HAHA Well, this is true. I really lack of motivation to initiate any study. Haiz~~~ Suppose I have to study my Chemistry Application but then no mood at all =.=
Today suppose to be a happy last Saturday night before the mock examination. But then everything turned bad, really bad in the mid.
After my dinner with Student Council and Prefects at Millennium, I messaged some of my friends to limteh, they replied. But part of the replies pissed me really off!!!
I really feeling like smashing thing around me. And I was driving that time, I really feel like hit the car in front of me. I kept on speeding till my car nearly fell during the turning. Okay, I think you know how angry I was that time.
Well, with this angry expression, I went to meet up with Yvonne, Joana, Yang, Tee and their friend. Yvonne saw me, and said that I was in a stressful expression. Well, I was still pissed-off that time. Then I told the f*cking story. Then I felt better after that. And i received apologies from some of them. Well, Thanks guys for listening to me =) I can't imagine if I was not there letting out, what will I do? And with a car again. HAHA
These fews days were really a hot day. And I feel that I am getting sick. Now, I have flu and cough and what next? I think fever is soon to be here in me! But I hope I am wrong this time. =/ It isn't ideal to have a fever in this timing, right?
Okay, mock examination is a week after and yet I haven't start revising my works. Well, I have to say that I can't feel any tension or stress this time, nor from my friends(I guess). Everyone looks calm... which is like there is nothing scary ahead. Perhaps, they are all well prepared and just I am unprepared for anything. HAHA
I planned to revise those application notes but when I am going to start, I feel like watching movie. SO, I ended up with watching dvd in my room. And the 1~2 hours just passed. Then I started to regret. But I think everything will really starts in this coming Sunday and I really hope I could!
This Thursday night, I watched movie with YenLu, Sheeling and Kelvin. We watched Mummy 3. Okay, I have to say that this movie is just moderate, don't expect too much from it. But the middle part of the movie is quite good, just the ending part. It somehow remind me of the production of Scary Movie, Meet the Spartan, Superhero movie... It is like unreal beyond unreal. LOL
After the movie, we went to Cheezbox but we didn't order anything and just left there. We headed to CoffeeZone. Later, TingTing, YiiWen, Louis, CheeTa, SoonKet and IngWei joined us there. We talked we laughed we played board game we ate we drank then we went home. =)
I guess this will be the last outing before the mock!
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This section is another of "letting-out". So, up to you whether you want to read or not.
I really hate people who 五十步笑百步. When you are the one who are performing an action, then don't blame people or criticise people when they are doing the same thing. Well, maybe you are just kidding and you feel nothing of doing it but not everyone will like it, perhaps your close friend or best friend will but NOT ME!!! If you just want to embarass me, then go ahead but I WILL CURSE YOU FOREVER!
Okay, not I am saying that no one is to joke with me. Only my "friends" can. And I think my responses can tell whether you are or not.
HEY~~~!!! The previous post is my 200th posts in this blog. =) Well, it is just a small number but yet I am happy to see that =D
Okay, this post title doesn't mean that I have blog.
By reading other blogger's blogs, arouse some interests in me and somehow touched me because we are facing the same problems or we are agreeing on the same point.
Just now, I read Peggie's new blog(pay a visit there when you are free), She posted something about True Friend. I agree with the point.
"Whats the use having so many friends when not all of them is your true friends?You may think some of them are your true friend and YOU treat them really nice but DO they even appreciate it? I can assure you that everyone is a two face bitch deep inside that fake plastic smile." - Quoted from Peggie's Blog
After that I read XiaXue's blog. Her first sentence already tempted me to continue reading. HAHA. She mentioned "MJ". At first, I don't get it but then the following sentence is "win $45" Then I know is MAHJONG!!! HAHA
Oh my god, I really feel like playing Mahjong now. PONG GANG HU ZIMO!!!
What's wrong with me?! I didn't keep my promise to update my blog frequently. HAHA
Well, I attempted to update it but when I just wanted to type something, I'm out of idea of what am I going to blog? =/ Basically, I just went out with my friends, had some gatherings and had some fun. But really, nothing special is yet to be mentioned. However, I am going to list down some funs that I enjoyed =)
1. Outing with long-time-no-see friends
My friends who are studying abroad are having their holiday now. And most of them are back to Brunei. WHOA~~ it is really happy to see them again in Brunei after a long long time. =) And I am sorry that for some outings or gathering that I can't attend. Sorry for that.
Anyway, for those gatherings and outings we had, I really enjoyed it. And it is really happy that we are able to talk to each other just like during the secondary =)
But too sad, PeiYi is back to KL now. But I think she is coming back soon. HAHA and this December, more people are coming back. WOO~ I can't wait till that day to come =)
2. Birthday "Parties"
There are 3 birthday gatherings that I attended. All are nice and fun!!!
First is YeeTeng's Birthday. I am happy that she invited me =) Well, I just be there for around 2 hours then left because the next day is a school day =/ However, I met MayYan, KangNi and JinHua them. It had been a long time that I didn't see them. We talked, we laughed and we had fun. There was karaoke but I didn't really sing because there were too many unknowns around me. =P
Then, JenHao's. Oh my god!!! This is super duper crazy(for me). This was the first time that I get drunk. Well, I didn't regret that I get drunk, instead, I am very happy. I did lot of crazy stuffs there till everyone was asking me whether I am okay or not the next day. Well, I can't really remember what I did. The most horrible thing I remembered is I vomit. LOL Paiseh eh.. Next time don't dare to go his house already. Another thing I remembered is that his mom kept on asking me whether I am okay or not when I was drunk. And I lost part of my memory there. I didn't know what I did and what I said. And this is really scary. Luckily, I didn't do something really scary there. I guess this was the first time I drank so much. But my friends were too strong, pro-drinker. Haiz~~~ Everyone was really high that night. =) Bah, next time let us drink again~!!! This time, I won't get drunk so easily. Wait for me, Jeff and Roger!! HAHA And of course, I want to thank JenHao for inviting me there. Hehe. The photo for that night, I had uploaded to my facebook. Click here
Finally, it was CaiYen's. This just happened 3 days ago which is Thursday. Actually we want to give her a surprise party but we failed again this time. We hid ourselves in her house but too bad, when she entered her house, she saw some of our shadows behind the translucent glass on her staircase. Haiz~~~ That night is really fun and high. But this time, I didn't drink because I had to drive. T.T But they were all drinking beer and I don't really like beer, so, okay la. I was watching them playing and talking with those who don't play. Around 10pm, we moved to YenLu's house to continue the fun. HAHA. Mainly karaoke at her house until 12am. Then I left. This is the first I bring YiHuey home. The slope behind reaching her home is really cool... like playing roller coaster!!! But too bad, there is hump behind the slope, so I have to slow down. HAHA
3. Rummy life starts
Oh my god, speaking of rummy, my hand is now itchy again. HAHA. I been playing rummy with Jeff them these days. Well, only a few days. HAHA. Each day with different people. I feel so bad that I win the games. HAHA. And the first day I played, I even jackpot. WHOA~ I was shaking when I jackpot. HAHA because I last jackpot happened years ago.
Too sad, exam is coming soon so I have to stop playing. =/
I guess this is all for this post. Haha..
Anyway, I just finished this lyrics(below) yesterday night.
Derick Chua, the owner of this boring blog. He is going to hit 21 by 12 Nov 2010 which is a sad thing because it sounds really old.
He is currently studying MORSE in Uni. of Warwick which he struggles a lot but he believe he can overcome all obstacles one day(hmm...).
He is a great musics lover and he is yet to be a good composer(hopefully a great one in the future). He is always a clown in front of people.
The biggest lies that he ever told are: he is shy and he is gorgeous superstar(LOL). Well well well.. overall Derick is CRAZY.
