Wednesday, March 21, 2007
6:43 PM
The decision and the factors...
Sorry for this late post... I admit that I am quite lazy to post these days because I am too enjoy my holiday.. =P

Anyway, this post will concern about how I reach my decision.

As I mentioned in my tag-board this afternoon, I didn't apply for the MOE scholarship. Yeah, this may seems ridiculous because I had already been offered this opportunity and I still drop it. It is really a golden opportunity at the first view but once you think over and over again, it isn't. But I can't said that it really isn't because to some people, it is really a golden chance. To me, it isn't.

I haven't been these indecisive before that I kept on changing my decision before the deadline of handing up the form. One day, I want to apply, then the other day, I don't want.

When the result was out, I had already known about the scholarship offers, but I didn't want to study my A level oversea because "I am not ready yet". And I have already plan for my whole A level that how I study, how I study my life and how I going to make my life more colourful in Brunei when I am studying my A level. However, there is always some cases that affect my plan but I will try to stick to my original plan.

Due to this plan, I didn't go and ask about the scholarship but my father who listened to his friends and came back and told me all about the scholarship. Well, I told him that I didn't want to apply now but he kept on repeating the scholarship and how the A level standard overseas differ from Brunei's. Well, I know how they differ but...

Last few days, I had been thinking over and over again. And, I listed out all the +ve and -ve if I study oversea this moment.

It is good to study oversea now because:
  • can get used to the UK or other countries earlier.
  • can get known to the universities over there earlier.
  • can learn to be more independent.
  • can test own abilities.
  • can make more friends.
  • can learn the cultures earlier.

It is bad to study oversea now because:
  • I am not ready yet.
  • I don't think I can excel myself within these 2 years.
  • A whole new experience and I don't know how will I do there.
  • I might spoil my academic.
  • I can't ask help from my study-mates/friends over here.
  • I might be discriminated.
  • The living standard is totally different.
  • The most important factors :"My friends"
After considering all these factors, I just remember my first factor that stop me from applying scholarship. I know where my standard is(or maybe not) and my O level result didn't mean I am clever and smart and good in my academic. I think my friends know too. So, if I apply for the scholarship, it is like I am cheating the government.

As a conclusion, it is best to content myself with more knowledge and revisions within these 2 years in Brunei. After I am prepared, then only I apply for my degree. =D

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