Wednesday, January 03, 2007
7:20 PM
Lost
I have lost a lot of thing... But my biggest lost is that I lost myself... Sigh..

I lost the excitement in my life, everything turns really boring to me... I really don't know what to do now... All I can do is just searching and searching without knowing what am I searching about...

I lost my memory... Really, I have a short-term memory loss recently... I become quite blur and somehow, don't know what am I doing at the time... I can't even remember what he/she said a minute ago... Sigh...

I lost my time... My time is just following the USA time, i think... I sleep when the sun is about to rise and wake up nearly 2pm... and this situation has already last for 3 weeks... I know my body is going to corrupt if I am still allowing this to happen... I have tried to sleep earlier... let say, I lie on the bed around 1am but still I remain awake till 4am, then only I fall asleep...Sigh...

Now, it is really late and I am still blogging?!

I really want to find back the normal me and my life!!!

Next, I lost a lot of friends in Brunei, but they are in foreign countries now to study... It isn't really a "lost", it is just I can't see them face to face until they come back to Brunei... I really miss them, somehow, some of them appear in my dream... Although I can't remember the dream's contents, I still remember their figure in my dream...

"人总是在失去后才后悔" / "人总是在失去后才知道珍惜"

Direct translate :: Only when we lost, then we will treasure and regret... get me?(sorry for the poor English)

To my friends(overseas):
Good luck in your study. I will bless you together with the God.. Hehe... All the best at there and meet a lot of friends and learn many new things... Although new things and friends are good, don't forget about the old one here, especially me!!! Haha... I am serious... Hehe...

To my friends(Brunei):
Heard that MD isn't that easy to enter this year as there is a lot of over-standard and crazy guys in our level. So, the chances is getting lower... I, somehow, quite worry that I can't enter.. Sigh... Really worry about the result recently... So, I can't really say that "meet in MD"... This sounds like a promise... But anyway, let hope all of us can get into MD undoubtfully. *pray*

Recently, I am thinking of getting myself a part-time job, to kill my boring life and to earn some income... But I don't know where to get one... and I don't know how to get one, either... Still have lot of days to go... wonder how can I survive...

In addition, not really many movies show during Jan and the Mall is already very boring to shop with... and really nowhere to go... Sigh~

BRUNEI IS SO DEAD!!! But BRUNEI IS SO PEACE!!! Hehe...

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