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Friday, December 29, 2006
4:20 PM
Tired!!!
I'm really tired to everything.... my life... outgoing... tv... internet... this world!!!My mind is tired.... My physical is tired... I really don't know what is the meaning to be born in this world... Happiness??? Does it exist? It is really hard to survive in this world without someone really understand you... but if he/she really exists, where is he/she??? I really wonder...Somehow, i am tired of talking and tend to be quiet.. but this gives other a bad impression... they might think that i am angry or planning something bad behind... I really don't know whether I have the rights for being tired.. SighI am tired of explaning to others as what I said is always get misunderstood by them... So what is the point for me to waste the time there? Sigh...Really tired of my life... Sigh...Anyway, this post is just another expression of my feelings...
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Tuesday, December 26, 2006
5:27 PM
Hmm...
Sometimes, being alone is quite good... but always being alone for several days is definitely not-a-good-idea...When I'm alone, I tend to think this and that... you might(or not) wonder what I have been thinking about... rite? It's ok to share out as it isn't very private... lol... I think you people have also thinking about all these... Lists for my(when alone) thinking:- My future
- Should I do something with my "Single" status
- How should I make my life more meaningful
- How to make my skin getting better
- Could I continue to exercise for the following holidays
- Where should I go if I can't enter MD
- How I make changes to my social's life
- How to survive in the following holidays
and many others.... can't list them out now... already kinda blur..Currently, I have to decide for my A Level's subjects... I'm going to take the business's course as my major but I want to take one science too... I'm goin to take Maths, A/C, Business Studies, and maybe Physics and a(compulsory paper) GP/Thinking Skill...5 subjects altogether.. wonder will I regret if I do this... 4 or 5 *frustrated*Luckily, I still have months of time for consideration... Actually, my future(aim) degree major is still under "unstable" status... I'm considering Finance and Accounting, Electrical Engineering, Actuarial Science... Quite a wide range for my(going to take) major...But still a long way to my degree year... I still have 2 years for my A Level... Haha...I think you might curious about the second one... Haha... I am single all the way from the day I born till now... Somehow, I wonder that am I really a failure that never fall in love once in the student's life... I admit that I admire someone(don't ask me who is her, you know that I won't tell one..) but I just don't have the courage to take any further step... Just be friend is enough for me, and just admiring is enough for me... Somehow, I think that if I fall in love with someone, she might get bored when we are together... really don't know what to do when I am in a date!!! Really... I may seem sociable with many people but in fact, I think I am not... So, it is better to remain as friend... Hehe =DThe others in the list are not important to do any elaboration as they are just simple thoughts... haha...But I really doubt that how could I survive for the following holidays... This December is really a long December... Everyday is going slow... Haha...Anyway, take care and all the best to all of you!!!
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Sunday, December 24, 2006
4:00 PM
MERRY XMAS!!!
It is now 25/12/2006!!! It is Christmas now!!!Lets Party!!! *party in this faked world*Anyway, Merry Christmas to all of you and still have 5 days more till New Year!!!Well, nothing much to be done during Xmas eve this year... If I'm busy, I won't be able to greet all of you at this exact timing... Haha...Christmas is a day for the Christians but I still want to be involved in a festival like this... Hehe...Hm... don't have much thing to say about this day.. but going for a party tomorrow... Haha...*Excited and anticipating*Anyway, Merry Xmas!!!
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Thursday, December 21, 2006
6:09 PM
What is wrong?
E-speed == Slow-speed!!! This is what I experienced these days... When I ping my internet, the "Request timed out" is more than the "Reply ....." How could I surf and chat under this condition.. However, I survived... Although the message I typed in Msn keep on rejecting back to me, I still managed to chat...Next, my body is under not-that-good condition... I don't feel really well these days, especially my abdomen... Always feel like to vomit and can't take any foods than before... When I faced oily and huge foods, my appetite lost... How could I maintain my health under this condition... However, I found the main reason for this, I think I am lack of Vitamin C as I didn't eat any fruits for quite a time...Last, X'mas in Brunei? Wonder what can be done in Brunei to celebrate X'mas eve and X'mas... For the past few year, I was always in foreign country(KL) to celebrate X'mas eve... and last year, in Empire Hotel.. This year? Home, I think... Haha... Everyone is leaving soon or maybe before X'mas... so celebration is rarely to be held I think... Haha... Same goes to the New Year Eve... Will there be any party or celebration? I think the only thing will entertain me during these 2 festivals is the TELEVISION!!! With the countdown program on show, I might/ can enjoy the atmosphere... Haha...Anyway, X'mas is drawing near and I can't feel any X'mas atmosphere in Brunei... Haha... Just to wish whoever visited here a MERRY CHRISTMAS and HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
P.s [H] Thanks for giving me such a best moment!!!
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Monday, December 18, 2006
10:36 AM
Out to the Mall
Finally, I was out again to the Mall just now with my friends~ Hehe... It was nice and fun... After weeks, we still can meet each other before they(some) are off to KK, KL, SG for their study...We had our "high tea" in Swensen and had a nice chat there... I really like the scene and love it very much... How I wish we could be together next time... but most of them are leaving soon... Sigh~Who are there? You might wonder.. Hehe... There is KuiChuan, PeiYi, CheaXin, Me, Shirley, CheeTa, ChenHoe, JingYi, ShueKang, GheeVui, Millie, YiHuey and PeiYi... Is it a big group or small? Haha...We were in Swensen for nearly 2 hours and next we proceeded to Cineplex for our movie, The Holiday... It is indeed a long duration movie... My bladder was going to burst in the middle of the show... Haha.... I thought I could wait till the movie end.. but I can't!!! Haha...The seatings were in a mess... everyone keep changing their seat.. Erm.. I mean only our group, not all the people in the cinema... =P Somes want to create chance for some people, some are just follow others' command... Haha...The movie ended and I met CaiYen outside the Cineplex.. She watched the same movie with his brother(weird eh? Watching love movie with brother, I think) She and I were talking way to the elevator and we said goodbye... Next, we just wandered around the Mall and at last, stopped at the entrance... Said "GoodBye" to them and I left... Maybe that will be the last time that I met them and went out with them... But still, we keep in touch and maybe can go out in the future!Farewell, my friends who are going to pursuit their studies overseas~
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Saturday, December 16, 2006
4:38 PM
Boring neh~
Stupid holiday that I have nothing to do much... Haiz~Actually I have a list of task to do: study and improve my language and increase my stamina...Haha... but i didn't even accomplish one of them and maybe I have already forgot all of them =PSo what I did is just chatting, browsing net, watching tv and gaming... typical relax holiday but it is indeed boring...Maybe my life is getting "kong xu" and meaningless...Anyway, Christmas is getting near and parties will be held among many groups, I think... Everyone is planning for their happy gathering and next is the New year's eve party... I think everyone will be busy with their life around that period... Sincerely wish them to enjoy if not, you people might regret in the future... I am the one who always regret after party... regret that why didn't I do that... lol...Let us countdown for Christmas!!! 8 days to go!!!
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Tuesday, December 12, 2006
6:31 PM
N73?
Should I buy Nokia N73 as my new phone? N73 is my dream phone three months ago and now is the Sony Erricson W850i... I used to be dislike flip-flop phone and sliding phone because after years of using, it will depreciate very much due to the loosen part... I think you can understand what I mean..I heard many people talking about the bad side of N73 and some agree about the good... I am neutral in this...So, W850i or N73... Which one should I go for? My mind is more to N73 (7:3) than W850i..Haha...Oh ya, just now received the first message from Desmond in KL... He was just arrived at there and bought his Malaysia Line... Honestly, really happy to receive his message.. Hehe... after a long time that didn't contact... actually it isn't that long... Haha...So sad that his flight delayed for 2 hours... Sigh~ Till now, my flight never delay before.. wonder what they can do at the airport... Tonight was Rummy day and I won $4 for 4 hours game... $1 for 1 hour... Hahaha...Currently addicted to CabalOnline and Mahjong(reality and pc game).... =D
P.s. [PHD]... found again...
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Monday, December 11, 2006
7:55 PM
12/11
As I know, 3 people who i know are having their birthday today(12/11)... and I was just back from my cousin's party... so now is already 13/11 =PA very happy birthday to Desmond, CJ and Tony... Hope you guy had a nice day!Desmond is still in Kuching and he had his birthday celebrated with his friends there, i think... I really miss him(my best friend)... Already seperated for 2 weeks time... Miss his figure, voice and the moment we have... Sigh~ You guys might wonder who is CJ? She is my cousin and also my Mahjong Kaki... Haha... I have been with them this holiday and played together.. but still i didn't get into their group well as they are already above 20 years old... Haha... and I am still 17 yo... illegal to go somewhere... so sad...Tony was having his party just now(knew from his msn nick and p.m)... Wonder how was it...Lastly, wish them a great Happy Birthday, although it is over now =DMost of my cousins were there in the party... Can't say to be a party.. maybe a small gathering to celebrate her birthday... They talked, I listened... and if the topic suits me, then I squeezed in sometimes... Then, we drank Red Wine... three bottles(consider less amount for them)... For me? I dunno... Hehe... I want more though...But tonight, I think I get to know more about my other cousins who I rarely contact with... Relationship boost!!! Haha...Very tired now... and tomorrow, I think Mahjong again.. Haha
P.s. Finally, R's back... Hehe..
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Friday, December 08, 2006
7:48 PM
Finally I'm out!
After a several days of staying at home doing nothing, I was out just now with my cousins. I was asked to play Badminton with them for the first time. The reason? Maybe they were lack of players but who care? At least, I'm out, I won't care about whether I'm in the list or not.Quite a long time since I played Badminton. I have totally lost the feel. I can't even aim at the shuttlecock accurately and hit on it but as I kept on playing, the feel backed! Hehe...Should I say that they are too strong or I'm too weak? Perhaps, I am weak at all. No complain about this... I know my own physical power and my skill standard. =)Despite the tiredness, exercise is indeed fun and nice!The 1st time that I played 5 times within 2 hours. I played only twice in the previous time when with my friends. So I can say that I break my limit and record! =DAfter that, it was the time for mahjong =D =DTaking bath, feeding myself and blablabla.... The time flew faster than expected. But a bad bad bad incident broke the atmosphere and we wasted our time in the living room for nearly 3 hours. So sad! and so ANGRY!!! So WTF!!! Haiz~We started our games at 1:30am and ended at 3:30am... Overall, I won today but still can't cover up my lost yesterday and last yesterday... I lost $22 and won $ 7... Haiz~But gambling is like this... It is all about give and receive... So that means I lost and I'll win the other days... So no hurt and no pain... Hehe...Tomorrow I'll be free the whole day because my cousins will be out for their Saturday night as usual... So what can I do?The answer : Television and Internet! Hehe...Anyway, this is just a journal of part of my boring holiday life.Again, I miss you all!!!
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Monday, December 04, 2006
1:47 PM
How I...
How I enjoy in these dead boring days? I really wonder how I survive... TV...TV...TV... COMPUTER...COMPUTER...COMPUTER... I found these 2 things are really unattractive now... Seems even boring... Sighh... But at least they accompany me throughout my dead life! I can't criticize them since they do their jobs well... to entertain me.. to kill my time! Haha...Finally, my cousins are back now... and we can have fun then =DBut I still miss my friend... really anticipate for your coming back... and the things that we talk about last time... really hope that we can do it... Hehe... More and more of my friends are now in their vacation... Really hope them to have real fun! How about me? my vacation? I think I'll go to Singapore on January@2007 with my cousins... but this is still under consideration... This is the 1st time that I'll be going oversea without the accompany of my family... and the 1st time with my cousins... Actually I'm quite excited about this =PLast night, I played Rummy and Mahjong... but it wasn't my day at all... I lost for both games... Sob.. I lost $8.50 altogether but I won $15 last time... so I still paid off my lost... Hehe...Today, we might play again... and really hope that the God of Luck is by my side and I think today is my day... <-- Hope so!
[PHD] Again, missing....
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Saturday, December 02, 2006
7:34 AM
My EQ = 147
| Your EQ is 147 | 
50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar. |
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7:06 AM
Everyone flies!
What I know is that many of my friends are going oversea for their vacation within this December with their family... How I envy... T.TI am still alone at home doing nothing special, only watching anime from my laptop and shows in TV... What a boring life~ I have excitement and joy!!! But where should I look for them? Sighhh~My mother asked me to go for my vacation alone without any companion... She really thought that I am independant enough to travel alone... But I think I am able to too =DTravel alone... This might be a whole new yet dangerous experience to me... If I go, can I handle all the stuffs by myself? If I do, this maybe the self-training before I pursuit my degree study abroad... Somehow, I am excited when I am thinking about this...I wonder could I ask a group of friends to go for vacation... Haha... This might be ideal but I don't think it is possible... Reason? I don't know... just my sixth sense... =PMore and more of my friends are leaving soon... They are going to pursuit their study in Malaysia, Singapore and Australia... Wonder when I could meet up with them... I know there is a way to meet them... Just a matter of money... Buy a flight ticket and meet them <-- This is easy!As I know, my friends and buddies are still coming back to Brunei, so I could meet up with them.. Hehe...This should be good to me, i think... A happy ending? Haha... I tried to write some new Chinese essays during this December but whenever I started, I stopped immediately... Sighh~ Thought I could earn some extra income from my works... Haha...Anyway, I am still waiting for you guys~
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